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it's been a long week.  really, a long month.  wait...when was the last time i was on this thing?  it's been a long 3 months, or whatever.

i've been overwhelmed lately by all that God has been trying to teach me.  i'm obsessed with john 14 and colossians 3.  words keep floating in my head...compassion, brokenness, burdens, peace.

in colossians 3, paul gives us a list of all these things to take off (anger, obscenities, etc.) and a list of things to put on (kindess, humility, compassion).  we're told over and over to bear each other's burdens, weep with those who weep, rejoice with those who rejoice, pray without ceasing, sharpen each other as iron sharpens irons, love each other with the love of the Lord, comfort one another, and weep over the sins of the nations.  i've only begun to scratch the surface of all this means for me, but this week has certainly shed new light on what compassion and brokenness really is.

i've been faced with 3 situations this last week, and have found myself weeping with tears i didn't even know i had.  not the kind of tears that come when i hurt myself, or when someone hurts my feelings.  but the kind of tears that come from somewhere sacred.  for the first time i remember, i found myself weeping for the situations of others.  i don't have anything profound to say....i'm just learning that repentance is being broken for your own sins, and compassion is more than sympathy...its brokenness over the sins of others.  maybe crying for others doesn't help the situation, but it has certainly given me a new light on who Jesus really is.

on a much lighter note, God is doing something new and exciting.  i'm taking this time to treasure things in my heart and to learn about wisdom and discernment and even discretion.  silence and accountability are beautiful things, and i'm loving every moment.  in the end, i believe God has an incredible plan, one that no one knows or understands, not even me.  i'm excited to discover His steps for my life with an amazing family by my side.

so we fix our eyes on Jesus, the author
and perfector of our faith, who for the
joy set before Him, endured His the
cross, scorning its shame, and sat
down at the right hand of God.
Hebrews 12:2